Friday, September 21, 2012

Hole in My Heart


Space Shuttle Endeavor on it's Last Flight over Lake Merritt, Oakland

Yesterday I lost a dear young friend. I saw her the day before she died. After my wife, she was probably the most important woman in my life for the last few decades before my transplant shrunk my work world. 

A wise, rock steady healer. A constant friend.

Her disease was not CLL, but another chronic illness that waxed and waned. It gathered steam over the last few weeks, reached a crescendo in the last few days, and in the end, it proved too much for her. 

I am so sad for her children, her family and friends and the thousands of those whose lives she touched and helped through her smart and gentle work.

Life can be so cruel and so unfair.

Today I saw the NASA shuttle, Endeavor, do a low slow fly-by in Oakland on it's farewell trip through space. Like Endeavor, I will never see her fly again.

There's a gaping hole in my heart.

I will be OK. I have lived with tragedy and death before, but there are some hurts that never heal. 

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6 Comments:

Anonymous mko said...

I am so sorry about your loss, Brian.
May you find peace and comfort in the connection that you enjoyed in her lifetime and still.
Love...mko

September 22, 2012 at 4:58 AM  
Anonymous jcleri said...

Dear Dr.K,

My heart breaks for your loss. Anyone who has lost someone they loved way too early knows what you are feeling. My prayers are with you, your family and your friends family. May God bless you all and give you the strength and comfort that you see you through the weeks and months ahead.

Take care........J

September 22, 2012 at 8:16 AM  
Blogger E. Kostich said...

When the heart weeps for what it has lost,
the soul laughs for what it has found.

September 22, 2012 at 9:17 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

She had a family who loved her and children who will mourn her passing. Bittersweet.

September 22, 2012 at 10:22 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

So very very sorry; life can be cruel.
Take comfort from her years of friendship and enjoy the memories.

May her memory be for a blessing

Susan

September 22, 2012 at 11:59 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So sorry for your loss, Brian. Thinking of the family. Alison.

September 24, 2012 at 9:55 PM  

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