Sunday, September 6, 2009

Not focusing

I am enjoying not focusing on my CLL and ITP. In a plain and quiet mood.

There really is no urgency. There is no tragic misstep that can't be undone, no abyss to stare into (and no abyss staring back), no reason to not take my time, and carefully consider what if anything to do.

After the shock of the unwelcome return of falling platelets, I am realizing that I am in no imminent danger. I just need to come up with a sensible plan before I am in trouble. That might be as sudden as a stroke, or may be a generation off. Likely there will be tell tale signs that will help predict how soon to make my move. I can be patient and gather more data points over time. I can wait.

That is plan for now. Enjoy the autumn, stay vigilant and then reassess. Much to look forward to.

Of course this all might all change tomorrow.


Blogger Sharon Halsey-Hoover said...

The centeredness that you are experiencing will lead to your being more aware and being able to hear the wisdom and direction from the Wisdom that is above all wisdom. If we could all practice this kind of centeredness the world would definitely be a different place and our lives would be filled with more peace. And we would all be relishing each moment and enjoying the wonder and beauty that is always with us. Bless you. You are always in our prayers.

September 7, 2009 at 8:49 AM  

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