Thursday, October 30, 2008

"And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain, Don't carry the world upon your shoulders." The Beatles

I say high, you say low 
You say why, and I say I don't know 
Oh, no 
You say goodbye and I say hello 
Hello, hello 
I don't know why you say goodbye 
I say hello 

The Beatles

It is not normal or healthy for me or most of us to be constantly up and energized and cheery. It is OK for me or anyone to slow down and even stop and rest and collect our thoughts before heading on.

While I do not believe for a moment in the nobility of suffering, I happily wrestle with the darker sides of life. I am your foul weather friend. I have drunk from the deep well of depression and I have slaked my thirst. I have no intention to revisit those mirky waters, but it is not my antidote to be chipper all the time.

I am that not chipper. What I am is grimly determined to succeed. I am paranoid, looking around every corner for what dangers might lurk, so I can be prepared. I believe in the Colin Powell doctrine of overwhelming force. Which means anticipating the ugly challenges I might face and being prepared for the worst. I am positive that I will be tested and that I will prevail. This is not whistling in the dark, it is carrying a flashlight, or staying in a safe house until the storm blows over.

So if I appear down and out for a time, do not despair. I am not despairing. I am really OK. I will let you know if I am not. Promise.

Everybody seems to think I'm lazy 

I don't mind, I think they're crazy 

Running everywhere at such a speed 

Till they find there's no need (there's no need) 

Please, don't spoil my day, I'm miles away 

And after all I'm only sleeping 

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Blogger goodydogs said...

I hear you!

October 31, 2008 at 2:43 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

These types of “ups and downs” are par for the course in the world of cancer. Even our loved ones follow a similar path and too often feel more helpless than us.

I know I will beat this (and you will too).

October 31, 2008 at 11:45 AM  
Blogger Howard said...

Just checking in so you know I`m out there. Actually up here. You are probably the poster boy for sanity. Get in better all the time. be well Howard

November 1, 2008 at 8:19 AM  
Blogger J.R. said...

I agree Brian. Even God took rest from his work.

Take your worry of blood and put it on the two side posts and upper posts of where your mind dwells. Rest there and know that what can plague your soul will pass you by.

November 6, 2008 at 8:43 AM  

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