Forgetting

Yesterday I had Fentanyl and Versed in my head so that I could have a scope in my stomach for my esophagogastroduodenoscopy or EGD. Although my wife said I was polite, coherent and appropriate, I remember next to nothing after the procedure. Thankfully I remember nothing at all about the procedure itself, a scope of my stomach and first part of my small bowel to follow up on some minor unexpected and hopefully unimportant changes noted two years ago on a biopsy.

I don't even remember enjoying the brief opioid high even though Fentanyl is supposed to be a real kick. Don't ask me though.

My wife tells me that they told me that nothing was found during the exam. Biopsies are pending.

Weird being so amnesiac. Hope I am OK today. Hard to self monitor when the problem is your ability to remember and monitor what you said. I was and could still be totally unaware of how poorly I process the recent memories.

They need something like these drugs for PTSD. There is actually some interesting research on using Beta-blockers to cut off the emotional content of violent memories, but this combo wipes the whole slate clean.

I don't like being unaware and I sure don't like being dopey.