Friday, August 29, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
"You never count your money when you're sittin at the table." Kenny Rogers
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
"Let a smile be your umbrella" Music by Sammy Fain and lyrics by Irving Kahal and Francis Wheeler , 1928
Monday, August 25, 2008
"Do you believe like I believe Do you believe in magic" The Lovin' Spoonful
Sunday, August 24, 2008
"It's time that we began to laugh and cry and cry and laugh about it all again" Leonard Cohen
I forget to pray for the angels and then the angels forget to pray for us.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
"How good and pleasant it is that friends live peacefully together" inspired by Psalm 133
Friday, August 22, 2008
"Where have you gone, Joe DiMaggio? Our nation turns its lonely eyes to you" Simon and Garfunkel
Thursday, August 21, 2008
"What's new? Probably I'm boring you" Frank Sinatra
"That he not busy being born is busy dying" Bob Dylan
You suddenly find you got nothing to fear
Alone you stand with nobody near
When a trembling distant voice, unclear
Startles your sleeping ears to hear
That somebody thinks
They really found you.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
The Good Old Hockey Game
This post won't mean much if you didn't grow up in the frozen north or at least fall in love with hockey.
Monday, August 18, 2008
"You got to pay your dues if you wanna sing the blues and you know it don't come easy" Ringo Starr
Friday, August 15, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
"But the big, bad world doesn’t owe you a thing. Get over it. Get over it." The Eagles
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
their bad advice--
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do--
determined to save
the only life you could save.
Let me start by taking several steps down from whatever virtual pedestal some may imagine me posing on. I am not there.
As you who follow my blog more closely could probably tell, I had not been in much of a literary mood for the last few days.
Maybe the stomach pains are wearing me thin, maybe my fatigue has drained my creative juices, maybe my forced patience with the unusual slowness of the whole engraftment process is throwing off my normal frenetic rhythms. My wife says I been moping. I know she's right. Not exactly exemplary or inspirational behavior.
I write this not to invite you to my pity party, or worse yet, to have you suggest I get over it, but just to let you know that all of us have darker days. I think it is healthy to be in touch with your pain and carry it forward. As John Lennon said " Does you no harm to feel your own pain." The important part for me is to carry forward. Don't stop and dwell on the negative. Accept it and move on. Keep on truckin. My family doesn't tolerate stuckness. That's a good thing.
The other puzzle piece has to do with widening and lengthening my perspective. Then all of this falls into place.
The dogs are back home. The vet and my doc think the risks are tiny. Doesn't stop me from reading half a dozen articles. For example: Such methicillin-resistant S. intermedius (MRSI) strains, although extremely rare, have now been isolated from dogs and the transfer of antibiotic-resistant S. intermedius strains from dogs suffering deep pyoderma to 46% (6/13) of their owners has been demonstrated (Gortel et al., 1999; Kania et al., 2004; Guardabassi et al., 2004 My only contact with them is to hear them bark.
My daughter, her boyfriend and I (masked of course) walked on the beach at sunset. He's never been to the west coast and never seen the sun set over the palm trees along the Pacific. And he has never eaten at In & Out so my daughter is taking him there for a fancy dinner. Double- double I bet. California is a special place. And obviously we are not a family of vegans. Though we can't share meals, we can visit. Not ideal, but workable. We make it work. That too is a good thing.
Monday, August 11, 2008
"Lazing on a sunny afternoon, In the summertime" The Kinks
Sunday, August 10, 2008
"And your friends, they treat you like a guest" Jefferson Airplane
Thursday, August 7, 2008
"Take the long way home" Supetramp
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
"He runs, wishing he could fly" CSNY
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
" I got a name" Jim Croce
I am writing you with another update and a bit of an explanation of the steps involved in my healing process.
I am now 35 days post transplant and am continuing to do well. I am seen at the clinic twice a week for blood tests which remain stable. A second very special test also showed no cancer in my blood 1 month post transplant. This is great news. This week I also get back the 30 day post transplant test that tells me how well your cells are taking over the functions of my bone marrow. It is a critical milestone on the road to the cure, as it is necessary for your cells to engraft and dominate my blood and immune systems to then kill off the leukemia (this is called "graft versus leukemia" or GVL). What i don't want is too much "Graft versus Host" (GVH) and I have been fortunate in that regard. I have had no problems so far. Again, no matter what the tests show, I would do it all again in a heartbeat.
I remain mildly anemic, and still have some issues with skin infections and stomach problems, probably due to my chemotherapy, but overall I am doing much better that expected so soon after transplant. I am remained so blessed.
I am getting out of the house in the evenings to walk with my wife. I have even gone to a few movie matinees. I need to wear a mask and avoid crowds, but it is great to be outdoors.
Thank you again for making all of this possible.
Be well. G-d bless.
Your grateful recipient
Monday, August 4, 2008
"Doctor, doctor, Give me the News" Moon Martin made famous by Robert Palmer
Sunday, August 3, 2008
"Take these broken wings and learn to fly. All your life, you were only waiting for this moment to arise" The Beatles
"Keep on the Sunny Side of Life" The Carter Family
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Life in the hood
Waiting to find out what price
You have to pay to get out of
Going through all these things twice.