It has been six weeks
since my previous infusion of IVIG for my now well-behaved ITP and my platelets
remain near 400,000, a very healthy level. Post splenectomy counts tend to run
a touch higher than normal limits but it certainly seems with these results, I can
safely stretch out visits to the cancer center to every seven and then eight
weeks.
Dr. Byrd is behind this as
long as my trough IGG (immune globulin G) level stays > 600. That level is a
bit below normal, but safe.
More good news.
My absolute lymphocyte
count remains nice and low. Neutrophils remain rock steady. Monos remain a
touch high. All good.
The only slight annoyance
to an otherwise joyous lab report was the slight drop of my hemoglobin to 13.1,
back into the mildly anemic range. Last time it was 14.4. The time six weeks
before that was 14.6.
Those last two blood counts
represented the first time since my hematopoietic stem cell transplant more
than five years ago that I have had two CBCs in a row that showed no anemia.
However, if I look back to
April 2013 my Hgb. was 13.2.
I was hoping it would be
staying in the > 14 gram range and maybe even start to climb to where it was
pre-CLL in the high 15s, but it continues to bounce around in a narrow range of
low normal to normal. I refuse to be concerned unless I see a downhill trend.
What I see instead is this pattern of the same minor ups and downs over the
last three years of blood counts.
I teach others that in
most circumstances, one blood count in CLL means little. It is the trends that matter.
I will listen to my own
counsel.
So no worries. At least
until my next infusion seven weeks from now in October! My veins are so happy.
Talking about IVs, while here with a needle in
in my right arm, I spoke with a young CLL friend doing well after HDMP+R (high
dose methylprednisolone and rituximab) at UCSD with Dr. Castro who now is considering
a Campath mop-up. With his blood clean
and no abnormal nodes, he has only < 1% CLL left in his marrow. He is less
inclined, and I agree, to follow such a course with all the new meds in the
pipeline. The calculation of the risk benefit ratio of prolonging the remission
versus the real danger of serous infection from the knocking out of the B and T
cell population with Campath may be shifting.
And I Skyped with a friend
in Ireland whose wife with CLL has a growing solitary cervical node and a upper
respiratory infection on the same side. We discussed the differential diagnosis
with a reactive benign node (the typical nodes that swell in response to an
infection) being number one, relapse number two, and Richter’s the least likely
in the absence of a rising LDH and more malaise. Also she was only received rituximab therapy
in the past, has no high-risk deletions, and is mutated, making the last
diagnosis even less likely.
I point these two cases
out to remind us all that there is no one size fits all in CLL, and along the
way, we are faced with a myriad of big and little decisions and worries.
Labels: anemia, Chronic lymphocytic leukemia, CLL, decisions, infusion, IVIG, lymph node, worries
I told everyone I knew about CLL, people I trusted and loved. In doing so, over time, my friends and close family deserted me, my church didn't understand and wasn't able to relate how ill I was nor provide me with the support I needed, eventually I left that church.
You see for me CLL, in combination with another chronic illness, made me very ill, so ill I couldn't work anymore and I lost my job, lost my career, my friends started to distance themselves and so did my close family, it was as though I were leper.
Now it is rare for any of those to phone to ask how I am, none offers to help; none visits; only my wife supports me. I use to be always the one who would keep in touch and phone and see friends and family, but now when I am in greatest need all I get is silence. Old friends busy themselves with self interest activities, I use to ask them to meet me for a tea or coffee but they always had some excuse not to meet, same goes for close family, I haven't seen my brother and sister for many years even though both are capable of visiting they choose not to. So I've given up hoping anything from them anymore. Even the medical profession has been woefully poor in providing support, so often I (and my wife) have been left to fend for ourselves.
Only now my life is close to the end does anyone seem to care, and those who do have been strangers, and at last this has got my sisters attention and she shows some concern and occasionally phones but alas it's usually a case of her saying something like "keep me posted etc.", same old habits same old complacency.
The strangers are people on CLL forums, people in palliative care, people who can relate to illness, suffering and ultimately have known people who have died. They provide words of comfort, they put an arm around you and hold you as you cry, they make you a cup of tea and offer you food, they help you walk and support you as you struggle to walk or stand. These are the real angels in this world, these are the people with love and compassion in their hearts, and these are the people who share your pain and suffering.
Yes, there really are good Samaritans in this world, however there are others who choose to look the other way and walk by on the other side, but the ones who have love and compassion in their hearts are angels in this world.
(Another) Anonymous said...
I'm not so concerned about keeping or moving up in my job as to seeing the pitying eyes, etc... Since I'm mutated and haven't had treatment since diagnosis in 1/06, I would most likely have to deal the cancer label for quite some time.
Only my family (including extended) and one close friend know I have CLL.